Dear World

Please Kill Me,

Happy Friday my varied vestibule of archetypes (look it up). We’re smack dab in the middle of summer now, and I must say that I’m freaking tired of it. I’ll explain.

With the mass amounts of work that I’ve been doing (writing and otherwise) , today I came to the realization that I was running in place. “What the hell, why isn’t anything happening!” , I screamed to myself – awaking from desperately needed slumber.

Summer, that’s why. God damned summer- the cruelest mistress to progress. Everyone’s away. Everyone’s out of it. No one is really paying attention to anything but the warm weather and sexual conquests. Good for them (but fuck them as well).

I know, I know ” Be patient. Things will come in due time.” Yada freakin’ yada, I’ve earned a right to be semi-pissed off.

Screenplays, novels, short stories, conventions, poems (even FUCKING POEMS!). I guess I should probably own up to the fact that I’m dealing with a -what’s it all for?– moment.

I’m no where near that upset about it but, (stomps one foot on ground, while crossing arms) I’m tired of the freaking waiting. Anticipation, ( that sullen wench).

I do understand that it’s a part of life , even more so when you’re chasing the same goals that I am. So I must get over it (regrets breaking keyboard), and think patient thoughts.

My solution? Well, I’m glad you asked – double down. More work, more writing, more EVERYTHING. Essentially I’m throwing a temper tantrum, but perhaps it’s the most efficient way to do so.

Becoming Utopia is set btw, I’m just timing a release date ( you’ll be the first to know), though I may independently release some other things in the interim , just to keep me off the sad road of distraction (and porn sites). Too much? Okay, I’ll put it back. (watches you try not to vomit.)

That being said, I’m going to finish The Gun of Crow, and throw it up on the ol’ Kindle for you folks kind enough to read it. Also I’ve extended a bunch of my short stories, so you can probably anticipate a collection of them (and some new ones) on a site that competes with Kindle (yes, I’m doing that just to be a doushe – temper tantrum remember?). I’ll probably do a poetry one to (similarly doushebaggish). Honestly though, I hope you guys enjoy and/or read them.

So today’s lesson on dealing with anticipation, remain busy, remain constant, remain focused.

Quick thing about anticipation, it’s just procrastinations angry twin. Stop thinking and get to work, because today’s effort – is tomorrows fortune. Holy crap, I just quoted my high school principal (Sadly remembers it was a decade ago and tears lightly, at the thought of his age).

Ahem, anyway ( ha, he’s totally still crying) , that’s what crawled it’s way from my mind and on to the page today.

See you guys tomorrow for…… I’m not sure yet – but something.

What are you looking at me for?

Get busy,

-Antwan Crump.

3 thoughts on “Anticipation

  1. I dont have any sexualitet conquests for the foreseeable future, but the warm summer weather gives me an excuse for being completely lazy and unproductive! So…. I say.. fuck it all! I am on vacation. Lol. 🙂 But I’d better get back to it, soon! Just… a few days more…. or something. Thanks for the inspiration!

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